college preparation

One ofthe most frustrating weeks that i have to endure. With such angst and depression its extremely difficult and mind bottling. College, it doesnt look like ill be seeing St.Johns University at all and right now I am flabbergasted but i cant see why i cant keep my dreams alive or with hope and some ambition.
In class filling outa FAFSA form to apply for Federal AID and lets see where that takes me, ill keep my fingers crossed and actually pray for the first time in my life for change.

st.johns University

I'M EXCITED

I Wonder

Enigma-

You ever had one of those days where you just sit and all you can do is think?

well welcome here, your not alone. So instead of sitting on my sofa, why not better to write my thoughts. And what more to help me sort out my thoughts than enigma, age of loneliness. I am at peace as of now, indian chants with a rhythm of tranquillity and trance, its all I need its my rescue.

Through life we have ups and downs but its possible for some people to just stay up and others that always stay down. Its sad to say but, could I be one of those people to always stay down and never go up, its not my intension. Although I have so much anger and sadness that infects my thoughts with negativity that makes me refuse to see a brighter side to any situation. I almost feel sorry for myself, but I know i shouldn't, no self pity nor pity from others.

I need to make a change, i don't want it to take an epoch of time either. I miss the courage i used to have and the attitude i used to own. Why fix something that isn't broken, i just need some minor adjustments.

Quotes of the Week

"a lot of fake dudes confuse courage, with being heartless"
"a lot of people think theyre invisible, here's a bullet can you stop it"
"empathy makes a world a cold place, and the sun burns brighter with every smile"

Final weeks

Final Weeks Not
By: Cecilia Dandrades

As looking at my recent post Ive come to realize that the school year has come to an end. so much fun i have had, but so little time its heart breaking i will miss the new friends Ive come to embrace and the journey . so here i sit at this computer thinking about what i should type and realize to just let it flow with honesty.

The laughs Ive had and the smiles I put on peoples faces it almost sounds as if I'm a senior but I am not, I'm just a junior, so who am I kidding, I will make those memories again next year. loving the trouble I caused is my excuse for an adventure, and an adventure is what it was. I did unfortunately, do wrong in my junior year but as a senior I will put all the wrong doing behind me and do right for I make my future in my present. I never had writers block, never ever had an issue of typing so I have decided to make my career based on journalism. Some people don't do whats best for them or what they enjoy but I do, I like to have fun with what I do, if not I see no point. I am many things but what I am not is, clueless. I have a clue, I have common sense but I am lazy, although when I am in front of a keyboard I cant help but to pound on the keys and type away on what ever topic is presented before me. I am a writer with ambitions, I am dancer with strive and I am a person with choice.
When you look at life what do you see? I see variety I see diversity. There is always room for change and for improvement, why not make a difference. For all the great speeches and stories in life written on paper. writing offers a sense of privacy and confidence, I write because it gives me both, and so much more for I feel after I finish a story that seems great to me that i am on a cliff feeling the soft gentle breeze kiss my cheeks and soon to whisk me off into a sanctuary of secrecy. Just the sense of completion makes me feel this way. This on the embark of a new journey through my tall tale that wont end.

Quote of the Day

"Death is something that can no one heal, but love is something no one can steal"

Quote of the Day

"With every action, there is a reaction"

- Cecilia Dandrades

Babies Having Babies

How would Life Change for A Teenager, Once after Child Birth

By Cecilia Dandrades

Teen pregnancy is a new trend and style, that is now accepted by most. And treated as an everyday thing, when clearly it should not be. Rational thinking is this and to be blunt, babies should not be having babies. Now parents can be lenient about their daughters having a boyfriend but they should not be calm about a boy friend in her room, As a young girl still in puberty not understanding her body nor letting it grow, she will have to leave her childhood behind and accept she has missed out of her teen years all do to curiosity and irresponsibility." With every action, there will be a reaction" by Cecilia Dandrades. My words are true, growing up i wasn't sheltered from the world as we know today, i saw the worst and learned about sex rather fast. and for some teens it was the same, but those acted on what they had seen growing up on TV, school even in there own home. Everyone was meant to reproduce, as that was gods design but not so soon.
I have had a pregnancy scare once, and the feeling I felt was close to suicide, it was like my heart fell out my chest to the ground. what i thought my responsibilities were if i had chose to keep the baby were defiantly life changing. So many things you have to provide for this little life that's almost the size twelve, shoe box. I wasn't zealous; I was petrified not even on how i could provided for this child but how to provide for us both. I struggled with telling my parents for they thought i was a virgin, my mother always said " where you lay, is where you stay" unfortunately i was not pregnant, but i did see the life i could not provide for this child single parent or not. It would have been hard.

Hugo Alfredo Tale-Yax
By Cecilia Dandrades
In a world today, society has built our eyes to ignore a mans need for medical attention because of his financial class. As people walked along ignoring and shrugging away to this mans whimpering groans for help in pain, they seemed to not notice the pool of blood he was laying in and just notice his clothing.
What is the impression that someone homeless gives, let alone a man that is homeless also known as a "bum". I know because i saw what homeless people go through, Ive been to a shelter once in my life and stood for 2 weeks. Women pass by with there children and automatically assume that homeless people are dangerous and as for the men, they get dangerous, rapist and thieves. And I stand for that not being a fact just an ignorant opinion, you can have a completely wealthy man commit the same crimes that a homeless man is accused for. So because this opinion was put into place, some have chosen to not remember their values to let him rot, instead of notifying the authorities not knowing his wounds were so fatal. Causes of those wounds were of bravery and heart. At 144 st near 88th Road in Jamaica Queens; he aided a women who was being attacked and in his act of courage he was stabbed repeatedly until he fell. At 31, Hugo leaves a story of courage and value, leaves many guilty and serves those right. And here is his story of heroism.
In Memory of Hugo Alfredo Tale-YAX

Now we look at the people of today and realize what a waste of a perfectly good brain, now the award for "idiocy" goes to the chosen faces here. Congrats fellow idiots of our generation today, you gave us good laughs and tear tearjerkers.

We gladly give the nominee of the worlds smartest man award, to the idiot on the bike.

Quote of The Day

"When in doubt, remain silent"

Amazed, By Lonestar

Amazed-
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

Solo

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
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When this song came out, in 1993 it was a huge country romance hit. It provided a soft innocent meaning of love, as a mother to a child, or as a man to his lover or wife. I connected to this song on a deep level and it gave me so much composure, and its a type of song that makes anyone want to sway. when in love this song serves a purpose. Amazed makes you acknowledge your partner and how much they mean to you and how you would feel if they were gone from your arms. Amazed creates an even tighter bond between you and your partner as if your inseparable, this song gives a true meaning of love. If you had ever wondered about, what is love? listen to this song and you will find and hear your meaning.
-Cecy d.

Quote if The Day

"When in doubt remain silent".

Quote of the Day
Ignorance is truly a Bliss.;

Rose Red film 2002

Stephen king's, Rose Red is a mini-series that aired on ABC's channel seven in 2002. with a chilly haunted house thriller like never before. Millions tuned in, in 2002 to see Stephen king's public premier of Rose red. A four part mini-series turned into DVD, “Rose Red” is a little over four hours and is a great modern version of the classic haunted mansion ghost story. A professor who has been fired for her

studies of the paranormal, she decides to take a bunch of psychics into a haunted manor, secretly hoping that their powers will “jump start” the manor like a jump to a dead car battery and give her the evidence she needs to make her career… or she could be going insane and hoping for immortality. It’s not completely clear on this point, which makes the movie all the more interesting. This movie has good characters, some really scary scenes, and ties together very well at the end, I give a thumbs up.

Cecilia Dandrades